Searching - ON WRITING AND RUNNING

Searching for substantial faith behind a wall of doubt
Mystified by capricious feelings fading in and out
Declining to control the shame that serves to hold us back
Losing touch with familiar faces off the beaten track
Indirectly dealing with some serious delusion
Overwhelmed by loneliness which adds to the confusion
Remembering how it feels to embrace unvarnished facts
Hoping that my sanity isn't falling through the cracks
Toiling with vague success, I find I'm out of touch
Craving for normality, I'm asking for too much
Yielding to temptation, I find myself alone
Deceived by over-thinking, I'm far away from home