Pen And Paper - ON WRITING AND RUNNING

Just give me pen and paper
And a very demented brain
And I will write some words
To help me ease the pain
The verses may sound morose
Or overly dramatic
My writing is the antidote
That helps me stay pragmatic
Or that's the lie I tell myself
Because I have a lot of doubt
For when it comes to heart or head
Logic won't win out
I cling to a reality
That borders on the boring
I tend to be self loathing
As opposed to self-adoring
I struggle with beliefs
Which are seemingly ill-fated
My dreams are in the past
And I am antiquated
It's to stop the over thinking
And shun the pen and paper
Just drink a lot of scotch
And vanish in the vapor