Lapse In Judgment - ON WRITING AND RUNNING

I've had a lapse in judgment
so 'round and 'round I go
searching for a way
to escape the status quo
I've had a lapse in judgment
my life has been an arc
starting with some promise
but fading in the dark
I've had a lapse in judgment
a reflection of my dad
impossible goals to meet
failure is all I had
I've had a lapse in judgment
I seem to have lost my way
trying to keep my sanity
while battling mental decay
I've had a lapse in judgment
slogging through the mud
lots of mindless whimpers
capped off by a thud
I've had a lapse in judgment
it's hard to face my fears
getting up the courage
to journey 'cross the years
I've had a lapse in judgment
where life has gone askew
it's time for forward thinking
a clockwise point of view